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I just wanted to post quickly to thank everybody who came to Sylvia's b-day party this weekend and made it a huge success. Syl says it was probably one of the best parties she'd ever been to. I'd have to agree with her. So thanks, friends, for being there for her andspending it with her. I especially want to thank F,K, and Jow, for helping with all the prep on the day of the party.

Keep in mind, Thursday is Sylvia's actual birthdate, so feel free to swarm her phone with calls to wish her well.

Current Mood: horny

Figured I'd share my first Burn experience with you.

Had a good weekend Saturday, we got a few groceries and shorts and shirts for the boy. Got the wife and I new bathing suits. My wife's friend from Atlanta was down staying at a hotel nearby, so we went to the club with him. Tried to avoid as much drama as we possibly could, all in all had an OK time.

Sunday, we went to Wal-Mart and got new stuff for our bathroom, and cleaned. Ate breakfast at Bob Evans. We didn't do much else. Felt good to veg out and play GalCivII for the evening.

Honestly, do I come off as a know it all?

"When are you going to show me how to lick myself clean?" ~ The King

Today was my day off. I got to go to the CVS, by foot, because my wife's car died on the way to get Juice, Deodorant, and coke. It decided that it didn't need powersteering and that it would rub the serpentine belt til it came off.

I'm also stressing because the jackasses at work still have not told us what days off I'll have next week, so I don't know if I'll be off just Saturday or Saturday AND Sunday.
I am stressing about the party in general. I'm not sure I even want one, although, I really would like to have one. I don't want to have any drama, and so, naturally, there's drama. And, yes R, I know it's supposed to be about me, but that's selfish, and I am like Xelana, I try to please everyone, even if it's at the expense of my own pleasure. I know that's stupid, but that's how I am. I am rarely up front about how I feel with anybody, and that's causing me as much heartache as it has saved me from.

Fuck the fucking fuckers.

This year we're starting out with a bang, hopefully it will carry over. I've inquired about some college courses with University of Phoenix. My wife has gotten an interview for a job, and it went really well. We're waiting to hear the final word back from the drug test is all now.

My two this New Year resolutions were to get myself in better shape, physically, and to have no less than 5grand saved up.
Saving that much money will be the harder of the two obviously, but hopefully it will not prove too difficult. Hopefully by the end of 2009, I'll be a home owner. Hopefully by 2011, I'll have a bachelor's degree.

In the short term, my goals are to have a good, stress free birthday party on the 20th (it's a Saturday). The only gifts I asked for are both food, Death by Chocolate, and Seafood Chowder that my mother in law makes.

After my birthday, I'm going to the doctor to see if there's anything I can do about some of my anxiety issues. I'm not getting attacks like I did a few years ago, but I still would like to feel comfortable around my friends and not worry about saying the wrong thing and being more confident around them. To be more like I feel when I'm at work. I love my job. I'm very good at it, and it makes me feel good to be one of the best at something.

I'm determined to keep these goals and determined not to procrastinate about them.

Current Mood: anxious

Holidays over!
Welp, at last, Christmas and most of it's stress is over. I don't have to worry about Conner liking what we've gotten him, because he did love everything that everyone got him. As we expected, he's been hard to pry from his big present (Nintendo Wii) I have to admit though, I've been hard to pry away from it too. Fjord, Conner and I got playing Marvel Ultimate Alliance yesterday, and I was hooked.

Thanks to everyone who came to my party on Dec 20th. Syl and I loved seeing everyone, no matter how short the visits were. It went pretty much without incident. Although, we did miss Rachel, we did get to see her Christmas Day though and that was nice.

New Years Day I'm probably working, and so I'm not sure if I'll go out or not New Years Eve.


I actually slept through the night last night. First time in like 3 weeks I slept through the night til the sun came up at least.

It's 1:00am
I feel guilty.

I haven't done anything wrong.
I don't want to do anything wrong.

I'm too afraid to hurt people
That same fear makes me hurt myself

I could be happier.
I'm just not sure how to get there.

I don't ask for what I really want
I haven't yet anyway, I doubt I ever will

It's my own fault,
I'm disappointed by what I get in the end.

I shouldn't be surprised by that.
Still, I always am.

Apathy and procrastination are my bane
They're not just self-inflicted.

I've got motivation
I've got a plan.

I've had plans.
I've relied on others

They haven't came through
Maybe they still will

I have been working hard and been successful.
Still I want more, I deserve more.

I fear that if I get what I want
will make someone else unhappy.

Which would make me very unhappy.
Which isn't what I want

It's kinda paradoxal,
It's irritating me.

I hate decisions like this.
They're never easy

I can't rely on you
or else to make them for me.

I have to make them for myself.
Damn it, I'm not sure that I want.

I'm not sure I will want what I want now
Or if the consequences will make me not.

( my xmas stocking )

Dear Santa,

Thanks for listening to my rant, and being so forgiving. I know I've been far from a good boy this year.

Here's this year's wishlist.

1) Decent paying jobs. Not for me this time, for my friends who want them.
2) A steadier place to stay. Again, not for me. More stability all around for some of my friends. YOU know the ones.
3) Direction I need to get better at setting myself some direction, goals and follow through. Help with that.
4) Wendy treats.
5) Toys.
6) Happiness all around. Peace on Earth.. although, that would put a lot of people out of work... Well you can if you want.


Thanks.
Kirk

Damn.

Flash HD 32GB... mmm

torhamx's Halloween party:

absath dressed as something rich, but what, specifically, you can't tell.
artsangel dressed as a bottle of Duonanmax.
babyinme dressed as the Viscount of Elmfield, and it suited them all too well.
beertndr dressed as someone who just poked themselves in the eye.
dattman25 dressed as a fork.
e_nig_ma dressed as a can of Pepsi.
emerith dressed as Adam Sandler.
garthic dressed as Kevin Costner.
godk dressed as a fullback for the Raiders.
grasyn dressed as a character from "The Exorcist".
green_muse dressed as a fiery shrub, and it suited them disturbingly well.
individual75293 dressed as a mummy.
joeymichaels dressed as a resistance.
jowers dressed as the love child of George Lucas and Mia Hamm, and it suited them all too well.
kabuki_akeim dressed as the President of Congo, though it looked more like a new superhero: Snow-wave.
kayla_wilder dressed as Jon Stewart.
kelgirl gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as the Cardinal of Freekyhlon.
madamehel dressed as Lt. Cmdr. Data from "Star Trek".
mamajenn1 dressed as a Level 14 barbarian.
mistresscolleen dressed as Benjamin Harrison, though it looked more like a disturbing self-made character called "Dinky Wafflebrain".
moonlytnyte dressed as a 1980's yuppie child.
mrdez dressed as a Colorado AssociatedCorp. employee.
phreakgirl dressed as Lance Armstrong.
pookakty dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Alma.
rpg2 dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Intellectual Watcher.
simple_design dressed as a pilot.
tiffanyd dressed as a raccoon.
tinkerbelladona dressed as your aunt.
xrkon dressed as Optimus Prime, and it suited them disturbingly well.

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Current Mood: tired

Starting to plan out our HHN Trip for this year... we're going the same weekend that the Funhavers are having their party. :( I suppose I'll live. We (kelgirl) bought the tickets last night, and today, my significant other is going to call around about the hotel.

I'm looking forward to going this year. It's giong to be a smaller group of people than last year and the year before which is good. This year, my wife won't be dislocating her knee with any luck and I won't be spending a third year pushing her around on a wheelchair.

I'm a bit disappointed that I couldn't find any more pics from Eclipse this weekend... not that I spent all that much time looking for them. :D

Anyway if you find some, comment and I'll give you my email addy.

Here's 3 pics of kelgirl, pookakty, and me!

Links only cause they're kinda big.

Pic 1
Pic 2
Pic 3


If anybody has any other pics of us, or just me even, let me know so I can steal a copy for my own collection please!

Had a great weekend. Friday night, we hung out with Rachel at Fuel. (Rachel = teh hawt) Saw friends, met new ones.

Last night, we spent the day wandering Jacksonville, looking for stuff for Night of the Living Goth, at the Eclipse at Factory. I was a little disappointed that the brain eating contest fell through.. but I did win best male zombie. So, I get in eclipse free... so no more excuses not to go out anymore.

Today, we went to the park over at 5points and watched fighter practice, fed the ducks, and walked around with the doggy. And now I'm relaxing, and drinking lotsa water and gonna veg out on video games.

Current Mood: happy

So, we're planning on going to Halloween Horror Nights on 10/28.. I'm off 10/27-10/29 I think we're staying in a hotel in Orlando this year, and no matter what, I think we're definitely going to do valet, if Sylvia and I go down in our car.


This last few weeks has been interesting. Had a really good weekend last weekend, thanks to e_nig_ma, and mamajenn1. Worried about drama, and drama happened anyway, although after the fact.

The house is quiet and peaceful tonight. I helped kabuki_akeim by fixing his car door, for the most part.. it's not perfect, but then again, I'm not a mechanic. Together he and I got his door up, and pookakty took him to his place.

This weekend I work, of course, looking forward to having tomorrow off though.

Really wish I knew a better way to post and to get stuff off my chest, but, I worry about stepping on toes way too much. Anyway. I'm a little bit anxious and nervous tonight for some reason. Feels like something big is on the horizon. I just hope it's something good.

More later I guess.

I think this week should have been National Let your car start doing weird things or break week. Our car needed a sensor or something electrical fixed, kelgirl's needed to have a bearing replaced and green_muse's car being out of transmission fluid... I think e_nig_ma's just was getting ahead of the game and started a couple weeks early.

Darn cars.